Tomorrow afternoon i am heading to Istanbul to meet up with my lovely lovely sister Keira bee. ALONE... that word really seems thunderous to me at times.. i have been preparing Ceyda for some time.. Baba got the bedtime routine sorted in one try and well its tomorrow already. I have to admit i am dreadfully exicited and nervous at the same time. The longest i have been away from her is a day... i know she will be fine its me i am worried about. I feel like something is missing when i go out for a walk without her. I know i need this and more than i know this i know my sister needs this. We will attend an exhibition for her job for the first day and half and after that do the touristy things. Visit a palace or 2 ...go for long walks, visit the Grand Bazaar have..yummy meals ....alot of wine..a good deal of laughter and perhaps some tears..I love my sister and am so happy that this opportunity has come around for us to spend time together. I know someone out there forsaw its need in advance..thanks whoever you are : ) : )
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Ceydas Development
| I found this on a pre school website. Developmental guidelines for age 24-36 months, its nice to have something as a guideline. I am generally pretty good at not comparing her to other children i think am fairly relaxed and confident that the time i spend with her and the things we do together allow her to develop what may be natural talents and preferences. There was a short period where i worried about her speech, but as it turns out i had nothing to worry about. Nowadays she is a complete chatter box ( no suprise there considering her mother is too ).. her new thing is shouting..I am going with the "lets use our quiet voice" but of course she thinks this is hilarious.. She also put my husbands brother into time out today (he had just raised his voice to his wife..i guess she felt the tone of his voice) "Cem Out Time now" pointing to the door. oh the joys !! Actually she was right so well done Ceyda !! Cognitive | ||
| Personal Curiosity / Autonomy | ||
| 1. Shows curiosity and interest is surroundings Always..she has recently starting asking " whats this" | ||
| 2. Imitates the actions of adults Yes --Example of Time Out, burping like daddy..mummys make up is a firm favourite | ||
| 3. Imitates play of other children Yes but not often... | ||
| 4. Finds own play areas or activity Yes- but likes mummy to join in sporadically..i do get the no mummy me play at times though | ||
| 5. Enjoys looking at books Very very very much "me read mummy me read.." | ||
| 6. begins to notice differences between safe and unsafe environment Yes roads, cars, water she is aware but not putting the danger aspect together yet... | ||
| Senses | ||
| 7. Begins to develop senses of touch, smell, taste, and hearing Taste- love to taste different things Smell - flowers, poo poo, Hearing- when she hears something new she puts her hand to her ear and says " Shh isten mummy " Touch- we have done rough smooth etc she likes textures alot.. hence the fact she always wants to eat with her hands | ||
| 8. Begins to place large puzzle pieces in appropriate slot She is very good at puzzles and loves to do them.. it's is often the first things she asks to play with when we go to the playgroup.. | ||
| Memory | ||
| 9. Refers to self by name specifically "me Ceyda" | ||
| 10. Points to common object on command Yes also loves to do this as a game | ||
| 11. Associates use with common objects Yes - kitchen utensiles.. | ||
| 12. Stacks three rings by size yes | ||
| 13. Knows that different activities go on different times of the day Yes - morning walks and afternoon crafts 7pm bedtime !! | ||
| 14. Understands that idea of waiting for someone else to go first This is a work in progress !! | ||
| Creativity | ||
| 15. Shows simple symbolic play (pretends block is a cup) Yes takes baby bears for a walk feeds her dolls, cooks with her kitchen | ||
| 16. Acts out a simple story rather hilarously -- Princess peppa bee and princess Ceyda bee always knock on alot of doors | ||
| 17. Draws a face (no arms or legs) Work in progress | ||
| Language | ||
| Sentence Structure | ||
| 18. Describes what happened in two or three words yes | ||
| 19. Verbalizes wants ("want water.") yes | ||
| 20. Repeats parts of songs, rhymes, and fingerplays yes ( bees, bugs and butterflies the current favourite CD) | ||
| 21. Gives first and last name when asked First name only but Selupucin is a tough one !! | ||
| 22. Uses short sentences to convey simple ideas yes but a work in progress and a fun one at that... | ||
| Listening | ||
| 23. Listens to simple stories and songs yes | ||
| 24. Follows simple directions yes | ||
| 25. Place objects in, on beside, or under yes | ||
| 26. Identifies loud and soft yes most definitely | ||
| Labeling | ||
| 27. Identifies own gender yes | ||
| 28. Identifies boy or girl yes but sometimes muddles | ||
| 29. Identifies self in mirror yes | ||
| 30. Names common objects in pictures yes | ||
| Self | ||
| 31. Pints to six body parts when named yes | ||
| 32. Puts on and removes coat unassisted needs help | ||
| 33. Lifts and drinks from cup and replaces on table yes | ||
| 34. Spoon feeds without spilling likes to spill as its fun !! | ||
| 35. Begins to understand cleanliness yes but prefers "messy" | ||
| 36. Helps put things away "loves to do this" | ||
| Social Studies | ||
| 37. Identifies self from snapshot yes even as a baby | ||
| 38. Shows pleasure in dealing with people and things gosh where to start.. | ||
| 39. Values own property and names personal belongings sometimes... | ||
| 40. Follows simple rules in a game run by an adult yes | ||
| Math | ||
| Counting | ||
| 41. Understands the concept of "one" yes yay !! | ||
| 42. Counts two (repeats two digits) yes | ||
| 43. Indicates awareness of more than two yes | ||
| Classifying | ||
| 44. Groups things together by size (one category) loves to do this | ||
| Size Differences | ||
| 45. Points to big and little objects yes | ||
| Shapes | ||
| 46. Differentiates circle and square yes | ||
| Science | ||
| Concepts | ||
| 47. Knows the names of three animals and alot more... | ||
| 48. Can associate the words grass, plant, and tree with correct objects yes | ||
| 49. Identifies rain, clouds, and sun yes | ||
| 50. Begins to understand hard and soft yes | ||
| 51. Begins to understand hot and cold yes | ||
| 52. Begins to understand wet and dry yes | ||
| 53. Matches two color samples not tried that yet... | ||
| Gross Motor | ||
| Arm-Eye Coordination | ||
| 54. Throws a small object two feet a ball yes.. | ||
| 55. Catches a rolled ball and rolls it forward yes | ||
| Body Coordination | ||
| 56. Jumps with two feet yes | ||
| 57. Claps with music yes | ||
| 58. Walks on tip toe all the time | ||
| 59. Walks upstairs alone (both feet on each step) yes | ||
| 60. Walks downstairs alone (both feet on each step) yes | ||
| 61. Hops on one foot yes wobbly though | ||
| Fine Motor | ||
| Finger Strength and Dexterity | ||
| 62. Fills and dumps container with sand yes | ||
| 63. Turns single pages yes | ||
| Eye-Hand Coordination | ||
| 64. Applies glue and pastes collage pieces yes | ||
| 65. Paints with a large brush yes | ||
| 66. Tears paper yes | ||
| 67. Strings five large beads not yet | ||
| 68. Colors with a large crayon yes | ||
| 69. Rolls, pounds, and squeezes clay yes | ||
| 70. Draws a horizontal line wobbly | ||
| 71. Builds a six-block tower yes |
Monday, November 22, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Later Babe...
Ceyda calls me both mummy and Isla but most of the time i am Isla. Daddy is Daddy or Baba and rarely Koray. Today when my husband dropped us off to meet friends in town, before i had even said anything she turned to her Baba and said " Later Babe" aww such moments should be bottled. She is quite frankly just so cute day day by with increacing chatter and vocab. Today she told me a cat was shy ? cos it was hiding in the bushes...oh i love her love her...tonight she told me that she would like to wash her hair tomorrow. not tonight, before we even get to her room she is bargaining the book reading. This is always agreed beforehand 2 books, one can be read twice...or i mummy can tell her a story about Princess Peppa Bee and Princess Ceyda Bee when the lights are out...( usually involve loyal dragons called Lucky ) Whats not to love....
Ok when i think about that
1.) Tantrums though not frequent they are so alien to me i kind of just stand and stare
2.) No potty as in i would rather wee on the floor than use the Potty...
3.) Ok so not so many... : ) : ) : )
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Birth or not... Feeling Vocal !!
What has this world come to...i have just finished reading an article in a UK newspaper about how an American couple have put the life or death of their unborn 16 weeks old Fetus /child to the vote.
I am honestly almost lost for words.
I wont be voting. I value human life and the decisions we make as being much higher than the click of a button.
Please dont get me wrong i am Pro Choice. I believe that this is evey persons right.
I am however not up for turning human life into a gameshow. Of course the whole thing could be a Pro Life stunt, although the couple claim not. Or the strange sickness of an audience starved couple. It is in my opinion its in utter bad taste.Or has my hubbie said when i told him ( BEEEEP idiots !!!)They have certainly got a lot of people fired up and talking.
My comment would be
* have they some money making plan linked to this ?
* poor child if he is born... aka" the internet vote abortion kid" seriously not joking here poor child.
* shame on you for whatever reason you did this. Ask for advice from friends family..not the WWB where sites such as 4 Chan, can have so much power.
This site is the home play ground of some really nasty people as well as general idiots. (unfortunately in some cases the genius kind that hack sites) ...45 seconds on this site literally left me with my head in my hands...
here are a few comments from the articles...
I would ALSO strongly urge you BOTH to consider vasectomy/tubal ligation (for you Public Schoolers, that sugical contraception) – as your genes should be REMOVED from the world-wide gene pool FOREVER. Mark Ward.. USA
They are a disgrace to the human race.
It's a shame that the foetus can't abort it's parents....
This article wasnt easy fo me to read the first time as i think the message was lost in the emotions that have.. having suffered losses. When i did go back and reread it..it showed me a different view, sometimes i think a willingness to accept things that we dont have answers for is the first step. Faith perhaps ?. . For the sake of arguement i would now like to say to tell the next embryonic soul that i would like it if they could stick around. The miscarriages can stop...Please !!. Thanks : )
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Dear so and so update...
The original idea came from 3 Bedroom Bungalow and i will for sure be jumping on this train every now and again. This blog really made me smile inside, being able to recognise so many of those feelings and sayings. Please take a look at this blog if you want to SMILE.
The link ups... at the bottom of the page are also fantastic. Once yet again i have no idea where from but one has stuck in my head ( sorry i flipped between alot)
Dear Husband
Please come home from work. Its terribly boring here without you....( i dont remember the rest)
made me laugh out loud, if my hubbie had been home he might have thought that i had lost it. so maybe its a good thing.
Night all
xx
The link ups... at the bottom of the page are also fantastic. Once yet again i have no idea where from but one has stuck in my head ( sorry i flipped between alot)
Dear Husband
Please come home from work. Its terribly boring here without you....( i dont remember the rest)
made me laugh out loud, if my hubbie had been home he might have thought that i had lost it. so maybe its a good thing.
Night all
xx
Monday, November 15, 2010
Dear So and So
I am not sure where this blog idea began actually i cant even remember where i saw it but i need to vent and thought the idea was great...when i figure it all out i will let you know : ).
Dear so and so
*Please dont allow me to wait for you and then decide you arent coming
* Please dont leave your shoes to pile up at my front door this it not a dormitory
* Please pick up your used cups and dishes i am nobodys cleaning lady !!
Ok thats better already now maybe the universe will channel my message...
Dear so and so
*Please dont allow me to wait for you and then decide you arent coming
* Please dont leave your shoes to pile up at my front door this it not a dormitory
* Please pick up your used cups and dishes i am nobodys cleaning lady !!
Ok thats better already now maybe the universe will channel my message...
Saturday, November 13, 2010
An Intricate Web...
I haven't been part of the blogging world for long (and there is a whole world out there). I have checked friends blog intermittently and love that i can maintain a dialogue of our lives, especially with dear friends who are far way. What i haven't done is is look at other blogs often,that is until now. This week i have taken so much pleasure from reading other peoples blogs. Mothers, sisters, doctors, widows, spiritualists, messengers... there is this intricate beautiful web of connections. I know it sounds well cliché perhaps, but i found them utterly inspiring, and in the case of one blog so devastatingly sad that i couldn't stop thinking about this person for days.
Sometimes evey now and then you read something that makes you stop..its so powerful, so beautifully authentic and real. That your mind is almost stuck in that moment. If you have a minute stop by. I was directed to this post by Baby Rambles. (an awsome mummy blogger )Thanks for sharing Emily O.
I was going to add something very blah blah blah about how the web brings us together allows us to make connections with people we otherwise wouldnt..blah blah but isnt that obvious ?
p.s still no camera charger so Peppas Rocket hopefully tomorrow...
sweet dreams xxxx
Friday, November 12, 2010
Bayram Chocolates and Peppa Rockets
Today Ceyda and i went to our friend and neighbours house, to make Bayram Chocolates. The Bayram Holiday will be in a few days. We both had a lovely time. She adores this family...
Here are the pics...Ceyda was like a factory, marshmallow, dip dry and repeat...so cute. She couldnt stop talking about her morning. In the afternoon we made a Peppa Pig Rocket with boxes and house bits and bobs...photos tomorrow as the camera battery has died and suprise i cant find the charger.
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| mmmm yummy !! |
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| Dipt |
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| Carefully putting on the tray : ) |
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| the finished product |
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Ceyda Friends
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| I should note Lisa ( Es mummy) was behind me saying look at my finger : ) |
Monday, November 8, 2010
How the decluttering / Cleanse going ? & a whole lot more...
First of all i am going to change the name to cleanse.. declutter feel well to cluttered : )
The answer is honestly not great. Apart from bagging and giving 5 bags of second hand clothes to charity and clearing my "posh living room " ( the only things posh in it is the marble fireplace.. the Ikea curtains,old recovered couches and borrowed pillows not so much..) Still it is my favourite room in the house and as with most of my favourite things will barely be used.
This means that i still have the home office, and spare bedroom to tackle...
(oh i just remembered i also clearned the cupboard under the stairs yay ! i can reach my tumble drier now )
Actually a hoarder could come to my home and find me quite mad as i dont actually have that much stuff what i do have though, is an obsession with storage and orderliness... no one tells you that orderliness and toddlers dont mix..please i am not making excuses just merely pointing out that on a normal day when i am cleaning bedrooms putting clothes away etc Ceyda is normally in her room trying on all her clothes... I call it the tidy up sprint ,as if i am fast enough i can minimise the mess she makes. Ok back to the cleanse.
I think this will be a longer process than i would have liked for one i am still waiting for DH to find a ladder so that we can put said storage away to be stored..
Ok back to Ceyda. We had such a lovely day today. It was one of those easy days where activites and duties flowed perfectly. So here is what we did.
*3 loads of washing (one of which still in machine take note Isla) cleaned kitchen twice..hoovered twice ( dropped bag of sugar on the floor...) tidied bedrooms. Prepared spare room and bathroom for new guest arriving tonight.
* Read all of her favourite books..including her new leapfrog tag books which she loves
* Counted..manadarins and apples alot... counting is kind of her thing right now
* Sang songs to a daft Pegga Pig CD
* Went for a lovely walk to the supermarket where i pretty much forgot to get everything i actually needed.
* Puzzle time..Ceyda is freakishly good at puzzles
* Watched Little Einsteins
* Played in the garden with Lucky
and last but not least painted before Dinner "project shapes".. the idea was for Ceyda to paint the shapes i had prepared..and once the meal was on the cooker i joined her and well we had far to much fun cos i burnt the dinner : ( : (
* Pasta with ready sauce for tea then.
The one thought that i had all day was "GRATEFUL" regardless of feeling as though i am tumbling around at times, regardless of feeling the depth of loneliness at times, i am grateful for everthing and everyone i have in my life. I am grateful for everything i think and feel and grateful for my journey.
Last night i blog surfed something i have never done. I found many beautiful blogs but there was one that caught me..it was the blog of a mother who had lost a child. She had brought only one of of twins home from the hospital. My heart hurts for this person still... as she is lost between the living and the dead. I know you dont know me but i hope you find your way.
Although there is no comparison it made me think of my first baby bee. I miscarried at 15 weeks. I love you. I think of you often my dear little boy. We are waiting for you.
Isla x
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Morning
Its very early, Ceyda tumbled out of her bed at 5.30am and we are both subsequently wide awake.
Ceyda is watching the last 20mins of Tinkerbell. (she has been watching it in parts since the start of the week) and i am sitting at the kitchen table reading the news and blogging away.
The week is calmly coming to a close and i feel more at home with myself.
A friend mailed me after reading my blog post about being lonely and was concerned and i tried to explain to her that i didn't write that i am lonely to create concern but to be more true to myself. By writing it, by creating a witness to my feelings i am embracing it, owning it and trying to understand it and in turn become more comfortable with it. I was able to see the reason behind the loneliness far more clearly than allowing the feeling to continue to rumble around my head. That's the strange things about loneliness though, sometimes when you accept it..it slinks away into the shadows. I found this article about Loneliness in Spirituality Today, in the article the writer discusses loneliness as a human condition and as a fear. A fear of being alone. The article article allowed me to see that i fear loneliness perhaps more than the loneliness itself so if i choose not to fear it , to embrace it perhaps it will lead me somewhere....
I also listened to a Eckhart Tolle video on Loneliness. I love to hear him speak his voice is so calming.
Solitude...
On Thursday a mummy friend offered to have Ceyda at her home for a play date, the idea was for me to drop her off and have a couple of hours to myself... something that very very rarely happens. Living abroad means that all of my family are miles away and my husbands family mostly live in Istanbul so for the most part it is Ceyda and i and daddy when work finishes. Which i have no real complaints about but recently i have felt the increasing need for solitude. It might seem strange that i would admit loneliness but crave solitude but in essence i think they are very different perhaps because this is how we have been conditioned to view them. Loneliness is thought to be a negative emotion, it can become all consuming and painful, yet solitude is the happy sister. Solitude brings time to nurture the soul..and spend time with yourself in a positive way. In solitude i read, meditate, try to to Yoga (very unsuccessfully may i add) i relax have hot baths, ponder and feel awakened. In loneliness i felt/feel lost.
The morning was magical although a little nerve wracking for me. My daughters friends mother is a kindergarten teacher and i reasoned with myself that she would be more than capable of taking excellent care of Ceyda. (did i mention that i am a helicopter mum?) Ceyda was completely unfussed only blowing a kiss from their playroom and shouting "bye mummy later" .
It took a while to feel relaxed without her but once i did it was so nice to walk around to clothes shop, have a coffee, read a trashy magazine and be at home with myself. Solitude.
Ceyda also had a wonderful time she told me animatedly on our bus journey home how much she likes Emma and how much fun they had. I felt refreshed, or rather i feel refreshed and she missed me...and i her infact i ached for her.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Ceyda Loves...
What is Ceyda Bee doing these days. ?
My bee is 2 years 3 months old, 90cm and 12 kg ( perhaps more after a growth spurt the last couple of days)
Ceyda loves...animals especially our Dog Lucky who "makes her better" whenever she has a bump. It still amazes me of how she asks for this (even hours later) she will come home and ask for Lucky to make her better. When she was smaller Luckys "kisses" were a wonderful distraction to the drama of a bump.. he the dotting dog would always come running when he heard her cry and still comes to her call much quicker than mine.
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Loves Cats or Rah rahs especially baby ones...
Ceyda has a special facination with " diddle diddles" this is what she calls tiny creatures such as ants..bugs..snails..worms, when we are in the garden we spend alot of time with the "diddle diddles"...
She also loves...
*reading her favourite book is " Slinkly Malinky" followed closely by " Owl Babies" and "Giraffes cant dance"
* Drawing /painting and crafting of af any shape or form as long as its messy
* Puddle jumping like Peppa Pig and gardening
* The Disney movie the Aristocats suprise !
* Peppa pig we have lots of Peppa puzzles games and cards as well as some dvds
* Baking with me ( we are planning coconut and cranberry Thurs ! )
* Playdates with her friends..
The things she says that make me laugh
* "So sorry mummy" ( with a tilt to her head most often said after Time Out )
* "No doctor mummy" she says this every time we go out at the moment after being ill.. followed by "me better"
* any conversation that starts of understandable " mummy lucky jumped eat me.." and flows into complete incomprehension as she gets so excited.
Actually there are just to many priceless moments i wish i could log everyone...
Love you bee...
Embracing Loneliness
Being lonely is such a contradiction for me as i love to be alone and right now i crave for more time for myself...yet as hard as it to admit i feel lonely much of the time. Of course i am not alone i have lovely friends and a beautiful very fun daughter but i feel lonely.
Many of my friends have in the past few months started work again ( friends who used to pop by for playdates and long afternoon chats.)....or thier lives have suddenly become so busy or they are travelling or have returned home..as a result i am spending alot more time alone with Ceyda. I am also travelling into town up to 3 times a week and find this exhaustive. Ceyda said to me yeterday as we walked to the bus "no mama no bus", this broke my heart : (
I am tired and heavy my energy is low and i am trying to embrace this deep feeling of loneliness and see where it takes me.
Today is stage 1 of my declutter day, Ceyda will spend a few hours at the office with her daddy and i will pack up all of our old clothes to go to charity. Clear up the house and try to get my haircut..lets see how that goes. lol...i might need a timer : ) : )
The rest of this week i am either going to post pictures or write about Ceyda.I need to back off me for a while and give myself some time to get comfortable. : )
Monday, November 1, 2010
Declutter
I have just finished reading this article on http://holisticmum.blogspot.com/2009/11/great-mind-decluttering-experiment.html about mind decluttering. The article has made me take stock of how utterly full i feel. I am bouncing around like a ball in one of those lottery boxes. I realised i need to take stock a little, focus relax and declutter internally and externally.
Today was full to the brim of toddler excitement apart from generally feeling as though i was shooting bolts of electricity i just felt like i couldnt find enough to entertain Ceyda and get all the others things done. I know this is partly because i have just spent the best part of 4 days indoors with a sick toddler no sleep and a house guest who snores !! I guess today i kind of exploded...the result Ceyda and i actually had a great day (spent mostly outdoors).. my husband took the wrath of my explosion ( i focused on being calm around my daughter so much that by the time she went to bed...) and i realised i really need to not let things build up like this.
I also just read this article on Little Buddha i guess it found me : ) : ) : )
Sweet Dreams
xx
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