Heart Rising Jim Self

I found the following article today, or rather it found me. I had to attach the picture of the door the same as on the site it was so symbolic to me. Here is the link to the site heartrising.com 

"The archangels said 'There is a path that has never, ever been followed before. We believe that we can create a doorway that would allow third dimensional mass consciousness to wake up and step into a fifth dimensional full consciousness.  Would you like to play with us?"  

Often described as a teacher's teacher and healer's healer, Jim Self has been leading seminars and teaching healing, clairvoyance and personal energy management courses for over 30 years.  A former vice-mayor of San Jose, California and advisor to US President Jimmy Carter, Jim is a down-to-earth spiritual master who has devoted his life to higher principles while walking with both feet planted firmly on the ground.  He is an international speaker, author and the founder of Mastering Alchemy.

Self transformation is the focus of Jim's website www.masteringalchemy.com. Together, Jim and his partner Roxane offer practical tools designed to empower and awaken those who seek. Motivated by compassion rather than profit, there are numerous articles, audio files, video files and webinars which are free of charge and readily available to anyone. In all of what is offered, there are only three very special programs which require tuition to keep them going, and Jim and Roxane do everything they can to keep the cost as low as possible. This approach is not only refreshing, but serves as an example of how selfless service can thrive in balance even in an economic climate which is vastly out of balance. 

Please listen to Jim as he shares his extraordinary personal story and his deep insights into human nature and what is currently unfolding in our world, by clicking on the enclosure below...     

Interview

Ponder Wander...

First of all i love the word ponder... 

I feel as though i have been Pondering alot over the last few weeks, and i guess all this pondering has in a strange way led to a transformation of my thoughts. Over the past 3-4 months at times i have felt so overwhelmed and confused and desperate for signs and answers for so many things that i only tired myself more , i have overpondered so to say.

Then something strange happened i somehow arrived in a place where i have never been, i had started to loosen the intense grip i had on all these ponderings...several weeks alone can give you alot of clarity. For me the message was to stop standstill..breathe and be in the moment. I am not sure if i am making any sense ? but suddenly the pondering led to answers or perhaps the closure of subjects and issues. I feel that somehow i am very different that i am not the person that i was 4 months ago...i am making conscious choices that are entirely true to myself without the concerns i had before. 

If anyone reading this doesnt know me well i am an empath, a fixer, a mediator a go between, i have many aquaintances but a handful of dear friends, my effort to continually help and nuture others allowed me to think that i an completely open but infact it is the opposite i am closed hidden constantly by the worries and strains or difficulties of others. Most of these people strangers that i take under my wing. I believe this was who i was ment to be as i chose that for myelf. My senstivity to other peoples feelings energies always leaves me wanting to help them feel more at home in the world..i cant think of a better way to explain it. 

But something has changed not i a selfish way but in a way that will help me to be truer to myself and open myself , i cant do this hiding behind the energies of others..constantly reaching for connections , i have  to find my own shadow.

Sweet Dreams xx

The Wise

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Istanbul and Realisations....

Sometimes it is impossible to see somethingor understand something until you literally come away from yourself. The weekend in Istanbul allowed me this...

Wonderful beautiful and magical the three words that spring to mind when i think of Istanbul add a lot of sister love and you have the perfect trip. I have always loved Istanbul i love that i could/can loose myself there, i guess i still love it for the same reason. I lived in Istanbul for 3 years at the very start of my relationship with my husband, young and fearless i left London and the careers that awaited me behind without a second thought.( literally) 

I am still that way and it was this most recent trip that showed me this. No i didnt do anything fearless or wild but i did realise that i have that same urge to live life completely and deeply, to never look back and say" i wonder what would have happened". That same urge allowed me to completely change my life 9 years ago is different now. It is more urgent, all consuming, a deep feeling within that i perhaps have a calling that has not yet been answered. For the last year i have feared this, been confused by this and at times doubted myself as mother. I give 100% of myself to my daughter i adore her and love that i am the guide to her life yet I felt guilty for feeling or thinking that i needed more. The weekend in Istanbul (this is 3 days of clear thought) let me see that the 2 are growing into each other.. like grape vines they are nothing without the other.Instead of thinking of it as needing "more" or " less" i realised that i can merge the person that i am with the person i will become and that it ok that  its takes time.. the time is what matures the grape vines..makes then ready.

So what did we do ? I wasnt there to see the sights i was there for my sister and as it turns out to retrieve a message from myself. I dont think she was there for the sights either, but  i hope the beauty and the mysterious energy that Istanbul has,  allowed her to take a breath away from her life and stop long enough to realise that she can only give so much of herself. When we give too much to everyone.. we leave nothing for ourselves.. i hope that she asks the ghost of loss that lives in her to leave and that her healing can begin.Love you bee. 

Here are some pictures of the trip.

my beautiful baby sister 

View from Ortakoy

Skyping with our older sister ( who lives in Canada) on the roof  balcony of our hotel

All the photographs above were taken by my sister. The blog post to follow will include my pictures and the details of where we did visit as well as our lovely lovely hotel. Celal Sultan.

Searching...

This year has been an incredibly tough year for me. The best way i can describe it is to say that most of the time i have felt like i was stuck in the wash spin cycle of my washing machine. ( sometimes i still do) Exhausting...exhilarating...yet there was no grand event in my life to precipitate these feelings. 
Or maybe there was ? On my 30th birthday i felt panicked...i had met with an old friend who voiced that she felt disappointed with who i had become add several other elements... an argument with a family member and the ground beneath me suddenly didn't feel so secure...all of the time and work i had spent healing and centering myself suddenly felt lost. Of course this wasn't the only reason my free fall began, i also allowed myself to be washed away with this. I am not talking about depression or intense sadness just a feeling that i was stuck in a fast moving crowd with everything moving at great speed around me. 
Lonely yet suffocated.  In hindsight my world was simply expanding dormant ideas and thoughts were growing. I was starting a new chapter of my me "ness" and to do that i need a good wash and tumble to shake some stuff out. You can tell by my writing style that i am non specific so i hope this at least makes some sense. There is one sense and feeling that never wavered during this time and that was me as a mother. I am happy that this bump in the road didnt have any bearing on my ability as a mother.                     I have always considered myself a spiritual person...at 17 i remember quite clearly telling our Catholic Priest at Boarding School that i would be the only person in my year not to be confirmed as i felt that there were too many unanswered questions for me. The result was 12 weeks of Bible classes that also failed to answer those questions (although i am sure at 17 my Taureen stubbornness may have also had a hand)         I consider my life a spiritual journey. The past few weeks a recurring thought has been bothering me about the ifs and whats  regarding the darkness of spirituality ? I believe in the balance of everything.
Then today the answer came to me in the form of a website i found. http://www.psychicbutsane.com here i found an article entitled The Dark Side of Spirtuality... to read the article see below http://www.psychicbutsane.com/annas-journey/my-past-experiences-with-fundamentalist-spiritual-teachers-healers
I feel like recently lots of things keep finding me.I want to thank the author Anna for talking about the Dark Side of the New Age Movement.I found the article really interesting.Gosh i am suddenly really tired and i want to be brave and post this before i delete it...to be continued...