Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Oh Captain, Oh Captain....

Last night i woke for the second time in a row at 3am, staring out at the moon, it seemed to expansive so enveloping as though it was so close, i wanted to touch it. 

This morning when i woke later i woke to read the sad news that Robin Williams had taken his own life after a long battle with depression. My heart felt pierced and the tears flowed, and the knowledge that those that cannot find in peace in life seek it elsewhere. A hurricane of depression and sadness rages around me, its not my own... depression sleeps long hours and find solace nowhere, the realities of life can be heartbreaking, today i feel a little heartbroken. 
Rest in Peace, brilliant talented soul who brought so much light and laughter to peoples lives...the world will miss you.
Oh Captain my Captain i hope you find peace on the other side...in the arms of the angels.



Oh Captain Oh Captain the poem for the movie " Dead Poets Society" by Walt Whitman.

O Captain! My Captain! our fearful trip is done;
The ship has weather'd every rack, the prize we sought is won;
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring:

But O heart! heart! heart!
O the bleeding drops of red,
Where on the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.
O Captain! My Captain! rise up and hear the bells;
Rise up—for you the flag is flung—for you the bugle trills;
For you bouquets and ribbon'd wreaths—for you the shores a-crowding;
For you they call, the swaying mass, their eager faces turning;

Here captain! dear father!
This arm beneath your head;
It is some dream that on the deck,
You've fallen cold and dead.
My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and still;
My father does not feel my arm, he has no pulse nor will;
The ship is anchor'd safe and sound, its voyage closed and done;
From fearful trip, the victor ship, comes in with object won;

Exult, O shores, and ring, O bells!
But I, with mournful tread,
Walk the deck my captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Summer Lovin !

The Summer is flying by... this is how its going so far



Craft Days with the gifted and lovely Sunny : )



Beach Days !



Fun with Friends !

We have been working hard to keep cool in this super hot weather... then.. out of the blue on Thursday this arrived ???  Yup thats Hail Stones in August, phew the fresh air was badly needed though : ) and along with the energies that passed " a breathe of fresh air "



and me....

* Writing from my Soul
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* Working hard to stay balanced and calm as a hurricane rages around me....
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* Releasing fears that i didn't think i had
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 * Intense energies.. the electricity of the Lionsgate portal was quite unexpected. I have never felt such intense pulsations and almost physical pain you can read more about the Liongate portal here starchildglobal and here spiritlibrary.com, it was a powerful week.
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* While searching for an email that i  had sent out on Thusday an email popped up that i had been sent by a friend (that is no longer a friend) on the same date 7/8/2013 , the synchronicity seemed strange especially as the evening before i had a read that we should expect synchronicity to re-enter our lives... reading onto the 8/8/2013 i was reminded that i was in a much different place. 
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* Finding truth in unexpected places and feeling drawn to it
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*Ending my vibrational holding pattern










Friday, July 25, 2014

Scotland Summer 2014


A few weeks ago Ceyda and i took a trip to Scotland to look after my parents we had a lovely time and spent a magical weekend on the West Coast.

Family Love 


White Sands of Mallaig 


Sunsets

We found the seaside home my father spent his summers in the little cottage has this private beach. 


Ceyda and Dougal #beachfun

Ceyda working away...

The rear side of Ben Nevis when i was 19 i climbed Ben Nevis as part of the 3 peaks challenge -- the three highest mountains in Scotland England and Wales in 24hrs... it is still the greatest challenge i have ever fulfilled and i want to redo the 3 peaks in the year of my 40th birthday for charity !

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Angel Wings...


She fell asleep to the soft rhythm of her own tears, then awoke standing alone by a lake... she was heavily weighted in her shoulders, huge wings far larger than her engulfed her... and then peace... someone joined her far taller far greater, she looked only at his feet his hands... and then enormous span of his wings... she looked to the lake and saw a person in the water struggling, not drowning but struggling... as she felt the surge in her body to help, he took her hand softly gently... "no" he said..."no"...
"then you must take this weight she said "
"i will " he replied
and then the weight was gone...
"thank-you" she said and he was gone...
its was then that she swam into the lake......









Monday, July 21, 2014

Happy 6th Birthday Ceyda Bee !!




TODAY IS CEYDAS 6TH BIRTHDAY 

Happy Birthday my angel my love

 

Monday, July 14, 2014

Metin Sabri Selupucin 10/07/2014

You were much loved and we will miss you !
10//07/2014








On the day I die, don't weep.
Don't say she's gone/he's gone.
Death has nothing to do with going away.
The moon sets and the sun sets,
but they're not gone.
Death is a coming together.
The human seed goes down into the ground
like a bucket,
and come up with some unimaginable beauty!
Your mouth closes here
and immediately opens
with a shout of joy there!


Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Summer Dreaming....








SUMMER LOVE !!




Disappear cloud disappear !!