Friday, June 6, 2014

Reflection Choice, Giving and Recieving...


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I almost cant believe that its already the 06/06/14 for some reason these numbers whenever i look at them seem significant to me. From the moment i woke they have been with me. When i checked the dates today i was drawn to GRB 060614, a Gamma Ray Burst in June 2006, Gamma Ray bursts are the most powerful explosions in the Universe, GRB 060614 originated 1.5 billion light years away in the constellation of Indus. 
Below is the constellation. Beautiful Right ! #breathtaking #amazinguniverse




May 

May was a month of Reflection and making choices, creating focus and finding my way, and learning that by filling my own water tank i am not selfish but stronger. Learning to receive.
The Reading that i had done for my birthday was beautiful. Here is a small excerpt...
One of the questions i asked related to my empathy... 


" Your ‘original’ and authentic energy is of a very high vibration. You come from a place where there was no real sense of ‘I’ or ego or anything like that . There was a tremendous sense of oneness, and knowing around ‘we are all connected.’ .....So, yes you are an empath and I don’t even know if that is a strong enough word for it!! It is hard to describe to others perhaps just how much you mean it when you say “I FEEL what others feel
It is not that ‘you are an empath’ and that now explains everything - it is that your empathy is a symptom, a consequence of you essentially being who you are....."


I spent time immersing in the Sacred Alone with Susannah Conway and learned that being alone is different to embracing being alone.

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Eating mindfully and pondering vegetarianism
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Spending delicious time with my bee, baking, learning, playing, watching movies.. the Croods is still no 1. she loves mummy daughter time and this past month started worrying about the dark corners in her room at night..Questions have started about everything and everything : )#love

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Working on my Children`s stories

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Feeling more capable in work is empowering me to consider spending more time doing things i love & nurture my soul #reading #writing

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Struggled with mid May energies but found balance


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Monday, April 28, 2014

#Perfect Day 28/04/2014


#PerfectDay #BirthdayFlowers #ChocolateCake #SpringRain #Feelingloved #Bliss !!!

The beautiful flowers my sister Keira sent me

TODAY WAS MY 34TH BIRTHDAY 
I SPENT IT 85% ALONE
IT RAINED ALL DAY 
THIS WAS THE FIRST BIRTHDAY EVER WHERE I WOKE FEELING DIFFERENT FROM THE NIGHT BEFORE....

#planetary influences !! ( wink wink) 

Its also the first birthday where i bought myself not one but two gifts.
- A soul reading
- I am joining Susannah Conway on the-sacred-alone starting Monday cant wait !! 








Saturday, April 12, 2014

Earth Team Support

http://www.starchildglobal.com/EarthTeamSupport.html

love & light !! & Happiness 





* every time i write the words love & light i think of my 88 year old grandmother : ), love and light came into her life after my grandfathers death over 20 years ago, i have hundreds of cards and letters from her over the past 10 years that she has sent to be here in Turkey each always finishing with Love & Light, i adopted the same term as i just find it so literal and beautiful to send love and light... and here a pinch of Happiness for good measure ! 

I know that Love & Light is universally used but i love that too me they are always my grandmothers. 



Tuesday, April 1, 2014

April Warrior




APRIL I WILL...
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Embrace my Inner Warrior
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Join empoweringastrologys Self Developent and Ritual for April
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Practice Greater Self Care 
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Monday, March 31, 2014

Mindful March....


"The month in which i became mindful of the darkness"

So this was my mindful month....

*Silence
*Awakening
*Sweet Dreams
*Dark Dreanms
* Grateful : to the person who asked me how i was.. only to greeted by unending tears


* Love and Light 
* Angels 
*Soul Searching 
* Number Sequences
* Unlearning "loneliness" 
*Book Club 
* Daydreaming 
* Empathetic Circles
*Grounding 
*Embracing anger 
*Searching for a cord cutting email or piece that i was given several years ago and not remembering where...reading through many many blogs and other memories.. feeling strength in others journeys...but not not finding what i was searching for...


Last night was the New Moon in Aries, the start of the New Astrological New Year, the night of the 29th, the wind here howled late into the morning, the gusts kept me awake most of the night but as i feel asleep almost exhausted from the disruption..i felt the surge and the shift. I woke and made two decisions that i had been stumbling on for months. 

I have been physically ill now for 3 weeks, the huge X class Flare on Saturday meant that i couldn't make head now hare over how awful i felt as i have felt like this for week, but today i woke with only a mild headache and tiredness, so what for April the theme for April ? Detox/Cleanse/ Daily Self Reiki ?
I will let that come to me tomorrow. 

I also have become aware of how protective Ceyda is off me, she softer and gentler with me, she doesn't try to argue and often makes comments about wanting to help me work or clean , since  i have been ill i had these crippling headaches, she massages my head for me.
I am conscious of this... in a strange way remembering how much i wanted my own mother to "feel better" growing up, i don't want her to have this burden... so i am conscious of it... i know that i have only had a cold/flu but it alerted me to her empathy. The same Empathy that i am struggling so much with right now. 

This weekend had a lovely time together playing barbies, making collages, playing in the garden, mummy daughter days ! 
and so onto April... 

Namaste`
Love & Light
(and the darkness inbetween) 











Saturday, March 1, 2014

Mindful March


This month is my Mindful Month, I see hear and feel the word in almost everything i see and, 11.11 Angel Feathers, Silence, Focus and Calm that is what i crave. So will give myself this Month of Mindfulness, i will help to Cleanse and Balance my Soul so that this Fog can Clear.

No matter how hard i try, i cannot be surrounded, my empathy is so strong it feels a weakness, a burden so great that at times i cannot breathe, i find myself seeing the unseen and hearing the unheard and doing the one thing i dislike... judging...loosing control and feeling anger, feeling a rising darkness....

Namaste'



Monday, February 24, 2014

let there be light...


I read this quote this morning and it just felt so beautiful. Almost magical to look at. I can almost feel the warmth of the sun lapping off the page. 

"THE ASTONISHING LIGHT OF YOUR OWN BEING"