Spiritual Unfoldment

"beloved children your life is governed by the law and you find yourselves in exactly the place and with the very circumstances which you yourself have chosen  but this is nonsense you may say i would never have chosen this path.. This is the outer self speaking , the mortal mind but the real self the divine spirit within knows the needs of your soul........ The whole purpose of your life and the purpose behind every human experience is the growth and unfoldment of your Soul."

My grandmothers gave me this book last time that i was at home she was clearning her apartment as she recently moved home. Last night i picked up the book whilst thinking about someone i love dearly... i immediately read the passage above. The book was written first in 1942 i have the published edition from 1961. 

I love the word enfoldment its encompasses something warm and wrapped the embracement of our souls.

In a few hrs we will drive to Bodrum for the weekend. I am so looking forward to 2 days in the countryside....

Looking Back

2 nights ago i had a dream i walking through the corridors of a building, a beautiful building full of glass and light..and old stone.. i stopped and greeted many people all of whom i knew.(but i had never seen).we shook hands, held faces..shared smiles.. in my dream i saw 2 friends one dear and very close ( both in friendship and proximity to each other although lately meeting up has been hard...), the other i had not seen in sometime yet is equally dear. In the dream i saw them at seperate moments.. we hugged each other so deeply and tightly that i felt it was not a dream....


I wrote this on Sat the 4th of June i had that dream a few days before June 5th. 

Happy Birthday DCFCWI

Today Ceyda and i made not one but two cakes for Ks birthday. There was also a birthday rocket that did not surive its launch off the Kitchen table. When i asked Ceyda what she wanted to buy daddy for his birthday she replied A present to Boys.. so i said ok what about a hat.. no she said thats to girls..i know lets make daddy a rocket : ) : ) and Carrot cake.

I got a bit daring and went for a DOUBLE CHOCOLATE FUDGE CAKE WITH WHITE CHOCOLATE ICING the cake became a single layers when a tin of walnuts were placed oh so beautifully right in the centre of the cake batter... or the second tin.I think double layer though would have been a killer though cos this cake was just soooo good.

 To think i even baked my staple Carrot Cake ( hubbies fave) in case i got this one wrong. : ) Cake overdose !!

No words.. ?

I honestly cant figure out why i cant find the words to blog, i think of things to blog about then they dissappear...right now its as though i have literally learned to switch off my thoughts perhaps learned is the wrong word ? 

After the full Moon of this month a quietness has settled in me. 

Ceyda is now at "school" 5 days a week and loving it.. her turkish has come on leaps and bounds and now she has started German classes which she has taken quite a shine too... i still miss her alot but realise that if i kept her home or brought her home early it is for me not her. The way it stands we have 3 hrs quality hrs together before dinner and bedtime and they are spent well.. baking doing crafts all fun and easy. Also if figure as we are travelling back and forth alot from Scotland she gets a 3 week break every 2 months... and then she is all mine. 

and me i realised yesterday that i havent read a book in 5 months ( i started a few but..) ... i havent used my Nikon camera either, oh and my poor garden... and what am i loving my new bedroom : ) when i returned from my last trip to Scotland K had a lovely suprise a newly decorated bedroom...so pretty ( it was  white box with a bed before and a 10 year old falling apart wardrobe.) The partition wall seperates a walk in style wardrobe. I love the brick work the room feels so warm...its so lovely i go to bed much earlier now. 

The picture doesnt do it justice...

We have the huge expanse of wall as you go up our staircase (a space saved should we ever extend into the attic). Last weekend we finally found this beautiful canvas horse picture. 

Pictures

Ceyda Sleeping in my arms at the Airport on the way  to Scotland

Happy With Grampa 

Lovely Lunch 

So pretty 

Cute Auntie 

Father and Daughter 

Full Moon Breathtaking...Taurus

Tonights Full Moon.... so beautiful i felt literally as though i was bathing in the light. 

earthsky

Catch up

I feel like i havent written in a long time but it really hasnt been that long just a week or so. Time to take a breather, regroup, find my voice , my words. I have been finding it harder to blog and i kept trying to work out why.. i have started using my blog the same way i used to use diaries as a teenager to voice things that are to painful to say outloud or talk about with people. I guess that makes my blog quite unfun to read these days. I also realised how important a sense of being part of something is to me even with blogging and there are so many different groups i am not sure where i fit into it all.
Either way i am slowly getting my Mojo back and i have alot of lovely things to catch up with so tomorrow i will post an update in pictures.
xx