This is my 100th blog post hence the 100 reference.
I didnt even mention it before because i think i was thinking somehow it would never happen. Ceyda has started Kindergarten...i cant even blog about it as i feel such guilt. Her Turkish is so far behind (especially after being away so much )that really she has to start a Turkish Kindergarten now... but its sooo hard yesterday wasnt so bad but today the tears as i dropped her off and then the tears when i picked her up. Tonight after her story she asked if she was going again tomorrow and i said yes the tears then followed..after kisses and chatting about school she told me " its boring at school" " i miss my friend Emma Aiden and Louis " and the hardest of all that she is worried that i am alone. Emma lives 1 hr from us Louis lives in Scotland and Aiden is about to move back to the states. Oh i hope she makes a nice new friend she loves to hold hands and is used to being very close with other kids. Man this mummy stuff is hard i love having her a home with me we bake do art projects go on long walks see friends but we dont speak Turkish.
She will go 4 full days a week to start Tues through Fri 9.30 till 4.30 ( although i can also pick her up after lunch) While she is a school her teachers say she is fine even ventured a few words in Turkish after 2 days...her teacher thinks a longer day is better as it will speed up her language learning and allow her to bond with the other kids who are all full time ( 5 days a week )9-6. Oh my heart is breaking and i do miss her, and what did is do the i last 2 days manic cleaning... coffee and rather depressing to admit short converastions with my dog..
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| Ceyda on her first day |
