Monday, February 24, 2014
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Goodbye 2013 Hello 2014
I know this post is late, i have been sleeping lately maybe resting my soul ? I am not sure but i am awake now : ) : )
2013 in review:
It was powerful, painful year for me personally, i learned to let go, only to be let go, i stopped fighting only to have the fight find me...i released so much that i felt hollow...i worked hard to heal maybe too hard, i missed some steps i fell, for a time i felt as though i couldn't stand....so i sat and stayed, i breathed... i wanted to go home... i wanted to stay..in the end i stayed behind.
(I will talk about this more in my new blog)
My journey with my daughter is by far the most magical beautiful part of my life, in 2013 i watched as all the baby/ toddler in her disappeared and a girl a little girl appeared, a girl who is sensitive an kind, intuitive and inquisitive..fierce and strong, full of courage and sometimes frustration and anger.. pure beauty.
I found my balance with a group and a friend Keya Rainbow Heart, welcomed by her family i found my own, i found my voice, i didn't feel alone.
2013 in review:
It was powerful, painful year for me personally, i learned to let go, only to be let go, i stopped fighting only to have the fight find me...i released so much that i felt hollow...i worked hard to heal maybe too hard, i missed some steps i fell, for a time i felt as though i couldn't stand....so i sat and stayed, i breathed... i wanted to go home... i wanted to stay..in the end i stayed behind.
(I will talk about this more in my new blog)
My journey with my daughter is by far the most magical beautiful part of my life, in 2013 i watched as all the baby/ toddler in her disappeared and a girl a little girl appeared, a girl who is sensitive an kind, intuitive and inquisitive..fierce and strong, full of courage and sometimes frustration and anger.. pure beauty.
I found my balance with a group and a friend Keya Rainbow Heart, welcomed by her family i found my own, i found my voice, i didn't feel alone.
2014 is about focus and love and fulfillment
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Kristy
Kristy
On the right hand side of the page, there is a link to my Friend Kristys GOFUNDME page, we had been discussing the impending fear that she cannot pay bills and may within weeks be homeless, i really hope this page can help.
She is a proud brave mama asking for help especially money is never easy. please share the link and button if you can, no obligation.
Love and Light
Isla
On the right hand side of the page, there is a link to my Friend Kristys GOFUNDME page, we had been discussing the impending fear that she cannot pay bills and may within weeks be homeless, i really hope this page can help.
She is a proud brave mama asking for help especially money is never easy. please share the link and button if you can, no obligation.
Love and Light
Isla
Saturday, December 7, 2013
There is no Fit...
I reread my post from the other day and it dawned on me there is no fit, i don't need a fit...i need to feel that i can be me... and then everything is just is as it should be.
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Roundabouts
New moon new beginning...or not ? today was once of those nice but odd days... oh and the wind was blowing so hard since i woke up... from the moment i was awake i could feel the energy change.It was almost as though i was literally being blown places.
Yesterday i said i may go somewhere... to stop by and say hi to some old friends.. i has already decided i wouldn't go but i ended up there there anyway.. some strange coincidence.. a cancelled Turkish lesson became a coffee with my fellow lesson friend and then a can we stop by here and see... it turned out my old friends from years back are this persons new friends.
Its weird it feels 100% as though i simply do not fit anywhere anymore, i became hyper aware..its like all my old friends from the last one/two/three years just fell away.. like a domino effect i think that's the mistake you make when you believe that the friends of your friends are also your own. Efforts were made coffee invites.. emails.. but i soon realized to let it go to let it all go..
and then today somehow i ended up in a physical reminder of my life pre Ceyda...memories abound..a little bit being in my own still life movie, it was nice but it didn't fit.
When i am alone i do not feel alone but today surrounded... i felt very much alone...its such a strange conundrum and i am sure happened for me to recognize this and to understand it.
So tomorrow another day
xx
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