Reborn....

Is it possible to be reborn within one lifetime ?

Today it is my birthday, i had a simple quiet semi-relaxing day (Ceydas best friends birthday is also today )
so as relaxing as 4 hrs with 5 year old girls can be. A slice of my favorite cake and my favorite pizza. A Bike ride in the Mosque and watching racing pigeons dance in the sky... it was a good day.

What does it really mean to surrender ? To Trust ? I wanted this deep down i wanted to repay debts and deserve the life i have...my sister says the universe is giving me a helping kick to get us to Bodrum.
I am not even sure but Thursday evening as i sat looking at the Full Moon, this is what i did... i surrendered to my journey.
Everything is unknown but there are things that are for certain. I spent hrs the other day panicked by the sense that i must literally reduce my life/ my belongings by up to 80%. Not just mine our families, then sitting in the garden, i realized the only things that i will truly miss, are the beautiful red roses in my garden that have grown with us as we grew as a family, my beautiful old twisted fig tree. Our birds... and... my kitchen : ) yup i love my kitchen its huge and a dream to bake in.,but there will be new roses and my tree will be replaced by an out of control begonville plant that attracts the most beautiful butterfly's.
There will be more things that are missed but thats ok.
As soon as i surrendered my husband did too, its funny its like the energy of our souls synchronized at the same time.

Yesterday i was woken with a bump literally at 6.04 by a small 3.2 earthquake that happened to be only 9klm away on a fault line i had never heard of. I felt literally as though someone punched the house and woke  immediately and opened the curtain to see the most beautiful full moon staring right at me through the early morning light.

I have no idea what the next 6 weeks will bring but its time to move, to move on, to move forward.