Today has been a strange strange day. My sisters and i used to describe the feeling we would sometimes have as impending doom. I have no idea what precipitates these feelings perhaps something i have read in a newspaper, ? ? that then effects my subconscious..a movie..lack of sleep who knows. For all accounts today was a beautiful sunny day, yet i woke feeling a dark heaviness over me. I slept very badly waking at 5am to the sound of Ceyda telling me there was a monster in her room (actually the monster was our house guest Ercan and his rather intense snoring...: ): ): ) a friend of Korays who has been staying with us the past couple of weeks)
So maybe it was tiredness or the strange dream that i woke from..who knows but today was just not fun. On days like this i literally fight myself internally and it is exhausting, i feel irrationally angry, sensitive , hiper aware and then as though a bubble has burst (early evening) the feeling is gone. ( no its not PMS..thats a whole other kettle of fish !!)
Highlights of my day
* Yummy Ikea breakfast
* went on a long walk with Ceyda and had a lovely time counting cats and there are alot of cats in Buca, as well as cursing at lots of other things..irrational anger : (
* painted with bee...danced with bee... did 3 loads of washing ( yes the sun is out ) with bee
*pretended to clean the house...meaning i have to do it all again tomorrow : ) : )
*watched my husband spend half the day making a cat shelter for the homeless kittens that now live in our office garden. hmmm
* Bee was sound asleep by 7.30 : ) = 45mins of Pilates for me followed by Pizza : ( sorry but its Sunday
next on the agenda...( boys out watching football : )
*Long hot bath..couple of chapters of a good book and last weeks episode of Greys Anatomy
NIGHT NIGHT : )
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