Dreams

Dreams
Nearly every night since the end of July as i close my eyes as i fell asleep i saw them a group of people in white robes waiting for me...
Last night for the first time i walked to them... i woke this morning tired exhausted almost pained, every part of my body hurt, i remember very clearly looking at some kind of camp beneath me surrounded by makeshift wires and stone walls.. i could see white cows lying in the fields beneath me..  and then they were close to me they were huge cows with horns, all of the colour was muted it was as though i was looking down at damaged painting... it was timeless , there was no point in history i could pinpoint...

I walked towards the camp... there were people everywhere but there were no faces for me to see ,everything was muted and then she walked towards me.. a women with long crazy almost white blond hair... she held me, i felt happy to be there but also panicked and stressed...i realized we where the same size... somehow i was looking at myself...or someone that was a reflection of myself... i felt such pain draining through me, incredible suffering and sadness. I began to hug people one after the other they were friends loves family....(each hold brought almost stabbing pain) for what felt like a very long time, then i was back to the top of the hill alone. 

I woke feeling strangely melancholy. 
I still feel it lingering but i know it will pass..i picked one Angel Card today it was fron Archangel Raziel Spiritual Understanding...